Post by faeriesnow on Nov 24, 2013 19:51:59 GMT
I guess the confusion started after my stepfather had attempted to rape me. Before that, I was a little girl who started getting used to being identified as a boy. After that, I resented the fact that I was a little girl. I had to tell myself that was what boys do to get love and this isn't who you want to be. That day emphasized that I will always be a girl no matter how much I didn't want it to be true. Every day of my life, I went from dressing up to dressing down. To getting into relationships with men yet getting confused halfway through the relationship because I wasn't sure of what I wanted. I went from a little girl who dreamt of being on a football team to a young woman who wants nothing more but happiness in her life. True happiness yet I can't cause I held onto this burden for so long until now. I can't tell my family because I'm scared of what they will say. I told my boyfriend about it d he was very understanding and supportive but he's scared it will change things between us. I'm scared myself but I don't want to carry this weight anymore. What should I do?