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Post by nekoneko23 on Oct 16, 2013 3:06:08 GMT
[glow=red,2,300][/glow]Dysphoria really sucks. No, seriously, it really sucks. For a long time i've been keeping a secret: i know my physical gender does not match my personal perceptions of who i am. Or at least think i am. The problem is i don't know what i am, so have no clue how to alleviate some of this anguish. i feel lost, like i'll never actually know. And i'm terrified to confront somebody, even if they could potentially help. i am ashamed and disgusted by what i am, and have tried many times to strip the notion from my head by force. It seems like no amount of self discipline can make the dysphoria go away, or make me content with my current gender. My therapist is aware of all the self injury , but i can't stomach the idea of telling him the reason behind it. i'm terrified that if i keep continuing without finding that elusive answer, i may end up causing serious damage. How should i go about figuring this out inconspicuously? Please help if you have any insight or experience. i'm scared.
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Post by scratch on Nov 3, 2013 3:31:35 GMT
Hi -- jeez, that's a tough thing you posted. I have gender dysphoria too (female-to-male) and I know, it does suck. I'm sorry that you hurt yourself. You shouldn't be disgusted by who you are, hopefully you'll know I mean it because it comes from someone whos felt the same. My advice, is not to try to just make it go away, because I've tried the same thing and it doesn't go away, you just feel worse and worse about yourself as time goes on. I know I'm not in your head, but I think you should try to live as the gender you want to be. That's what I've been doing since I was a toddler (I do'nt know if you're female to male or male to female, although I know FTM is easier) but because I've tried to be myself my whole life I haven't suffered so much. And you know what, I haven't been seriously bullied, not once (although I've been teased a few times.) I hope that helped somehow, I wish I knew what else to tell you but I'm not in your shoes so I don't know. Good luck and sorry that things are hard
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