Post by gummybatwings on May 20, 2013 1:43:56 GMT
Hello. I am a freshman in high school and I just don't know what is happening.
First, I made a friend. She was great, we were besties for a while...and I couldn't help but feel attracted to her in a more than a friend way. We had a fight, and now she hates me. I'm devastated, I was so depressed for months about it, and now I just forgot, I didn't move on.
Now, there's an upperclassman. She's really nice. We got closer during the track season. She made me a friendship bracelet (she makes a lot of those) and I'm going to make her a custom toy. She gave me cookies, I gave her cupcakes. Yeah, we're buds. But I can't stop thinking about her, I think she's great, I get jealous when she talks to other guys, I know I like her. I just...I know. I've felt this way about boys many times, I won't deny it this time. I LIKE HER. and she is openly bisexual.
But it feels wrong to me...I'm not AGAINST homosexuality if others are that way. But it feels like it's not right for ME. But I sometimes do fall for girls.
And its not that I find girls attractive first and then go for them. Very few I take a liking to once we get closer. It's not every friend girl I have. Just a select few...(Two)...
I definitely like guys, too. Definitely.
I don't know what to do. I don't think I can have her, she doesn't like me like that, she's too old. If I come out my family will not be supportive and neither will some of my friends. My best friend knows and she's okay with it, but she seems to believe I'm just being desperate. Trust me, I'm not. I...don't know.
Anything anyone has to say would be appreciated.
First, I made a friend. She was great, we were besties for a while...and I couldn't help but feel attracted to her in a more than a friend way. We had a fight, and now she hates me. I'm devastated, I was so depressed for months about it, and now I just forgot, I didn't move on.
Now, there's an upperclassman. She's really nice. We got closer during the track season. She made me a friendship bracelet (she makes a lot of those) and I'm going to make her a custom toy. She gave me cookies, I gave her cupcakes. Yeah, we're buds. But I can't stop thinking about her, I think she's great, I get jealous when she talks to other guys, I know I like her. I just...I know. I've felt this way about boys many times, I won't deny it this time. I LIKE HER. and she is openly bisexual.
But it feels wrong to me...I'm not AGAINST homosexuality if others are that way. But it feels like it's not right for ME. But I sometimes do fall for girls.
And its not that I find girls attractive first and then go for them. Very few I take a liking to once we get closer. It's not every friend girl I have. Just a select few...(Two)...
I definitely like guys, too. Definitely.
I don't know what to do. I don't think I can have her, she doesn't like me like that, she's too old. If I come out my family will not be supportive and neither will some of my friends. My best friend knows and she's okay with it, but she seems to believe I'm just being desperate. Trust me, I'm not. I...don't know.
Anything anyone has to say would be appreciated.