Does she like me or am I imagining?

[digitalghost]

So in class we're on opposite sides of the room but we sit in desks where we can see each other. When the teacher would say something funny during a lesson I'd look at her to see if she was smiling. She doesn't smile/laugh a lot, unlike me who laughs at everything. But when she does I just melt in my chair. I'm confused if she likes me because sometimes when I look to see if she's smiling, I see her smiling at me! And I melt even more! I'm such a weirdo when she looks at me cuz I'd immediately drop my head down as if I wasn't looking. I always tell myself to hold the stare but I freak out and make it awkward.

Everytime I go in that class I feel like all I do is have eye!sex. All we have is eye!sex.

Today was way too good. A guy student asked a Spanish-grammar-question(it's a Spanish class), it was something about senora(lady) and mujer(woman) and esposa(wife) etc. It was blah blah blah then the teacher was explaining that mujer(woman) can also mean esposa(wife). The teacher said...you can say "this is my woman, es mi mujer, this is my wife" it can mean the same thing...I'll I heard was "woman,woman,wife" and I quickly had my eyes on her. We both caught each others eyes. IT WAS SO CRAZY!!! She had this shyish smile for me and my heart just exploded. It was so cute!

But hold on! What makes me WAY confused is how she leaves the classroom SO fast. Every freaking day. She's one of the first people to leave the door. So our class is upstairs and she leaves fast so I see her already downstairs and I'm looking from above. And it's weird because I see her talking to this tall guy and she's walking like she's taking her time. And I'm just like, "what the f**k? who is this guy?" I've seen this guy talk to her afterschool 2 or 3 days in a row. But if she walks alone she walks super fast but when talking to someone she slows down. It's weird! And I'm confused!

More info on her:
on Facebook it says...Religious Views:Jesus Loves Me! Interested In: Men
What troubles me is that on her sister's and brother's profile it says Religious Views:Christian...Why doesn't she put that?

Our relationship is just Facebook friends and classmates. We never talk, never hang out. But we have eye!sex. She's a senior and I'm a junior. Last year I walked her home twice. I think she knows I like her. I sometimes have gay Facebook statuses but they're only visible to her cuz I'm not out to my friends. When it was her birthday I sent her a message saying that her smiles make my day and she replied saying that I was sweet. And of course I melted again!

Sometimes I feel she likes me, but I feel like it's my imagination.

I'm sorry it's so long. If you wanna know anything else just ask. Sorry, again.

[cat]

Hey digitalghost. Yeah I think I know how you feel. I'm still not out of the closet completely with my other friends, and it makes life way confusing. Anyhow I have a simillar situtation with a girl I like, except we do talk, and laugh, etc, but I think she is straight.... Meh I'm getting side-tracked, Anyhow before you start to freak out too much about this guy (and I realize many months have passed since u posted this so it may not be relivent anymore) perhaps you should try to hang out with this girl more? Get to know her, and maybe even get to the point where u can talk about different sexual preferences. It's possible that she is attracted to you but doesn't realize it, perhaps becuz her whole life people have treated her as if she was straight (which was my case). But yeah I think if you hang out, really be-friend her, etc then maybe you can get to the concept of "each other", and that potential relationship. Good luck and I hope this helps!