Post by n1ks on Sept 13, 2011 1:00:57 GMT
I've always known I was a bit odd on the side but I soon found out it had something to do with my interest. Steadily, I started figuring out I'm not interested in guys, but girls. As I look back in my previous years throughout school I was really, really nice to the girls I know and are friends with. I even remember offering my shirt (don't worry, had a spare, didn't went topless) to a classmate who had spilled orange juice on her favorite top. As for second thoughts, I thought it was that "phase" answer that came with puberty. But it wasn't and I'm finding myself checking out girls while trying to act like I'm straight and not interested in the same gender.
I'm not out with my family or friends--I'm not ashamed of the fact I'm lesbian or anything. One: My Mom doesn't like gay people or anything. Two: Even though I've known some classmates who went through elementary and middle school with me, I still don't feel like they would understand the fact I'm not into guys, I'm into girls instead. Its a hush-hush life but I've learned to deal with it while trying to figure out myself in this situation.
My school has a club where gay people can come and hang, be among people that are/or have went through the same conflict about him/herself. But I'm a bit conscious word will spread out if anyone sees me going to the meeting.
I have an older sibling, who's attending the same high school as me. A total suck-up to our parents and if he's among the popular and "cool" crowd. If rumors about or news about reaches him, it'll reach our parents for sure.
So...yeah.
That's me and my life.
I'm not out with my family or friends--I'm not ashamed of the fact I'm lesbian or anything. One: My Mom doesn't like gay people or anything. Two: Even though I've known some classmates who went through elementary and middle school with me, I still don't feel like they would understand the fact I'm not into guys, I'm into girls instead. Its a hush-hush life but I've learned to deal with it while trying to figure out myself in this situation.
My school has a club where gay people can come and hang, be among people that are/or have went through the same conflict about him/herself. But I'm a bit conscious word will spread out if anyone sees me going to the meeting.
I have an older sibling, who's attending the same high school as me. A total suck-up to our parents and if he's among the popular and "cool" crowd. If rumors about or news about reaches him, it'll reach our parents for sure.
So...yeah.
That's me and my life.
